India - A Case Study
Do I really know India?
If you had asked me this question 10-15 years back, I would have been amused, surprised, a bit annoyed may be... shouldn't it be obvious? I was born and brought up there. My parents were born there. So were my grandparents. My grandmother told us stories of at least seven generations... So for generations India has been a part of me, my being, my core identity.
But today I wonder, did I really understand India all those years ago?
Trying to understanding your country of origin is like trying to understand your own parents. You can love them. You can hate them. But can you really 'get' them?
It is a challenge when you take your own parent's case. Because case taking in homeopathy at Stage 3 and beyond needs the practitioner to dissociate and look at patients objectively.
Can you ever be so unprejudiced so as to understand your own parents at that level? Although not impossible, but when your identity is so inherently entangled with them it's pretty hard to get that perspective.
It's the same about understanding your country of origin.
For all these years I have had the same love hate relationship with India.
I remember for the first few years after coming to Australia, going back to India was driven by sheer homesickness. I missed my people, my food, the colours, the smells, the noise, the heat, the traffic, the overflowing emotions and yes the chaos....I missed getting lost in the flow and losing track of time, boundaries and structure...
No sooner I was there, then within a few weeks I found myself hating the very same things I came for. I wanted things to change and work the way I wanted them to function....I was ready to get back to my routine structured non-chaotic life in Sydney. I yearned for my own space so I could find myself again.
But then within a year I was desperate to go back to India...
This cycle continued for years.
India - my changing relationship
Then somehow in the last couple of years I find that this pattern is changing. Subtly but surely. My Indian visits are no longer driven by homesickness . At the same time I not counting days and desperate to get back to Australia.
I am easily changing gears and enjoying the freedom and choices that both places offer.
For the first time this year I am experiencing a sense of ease no matter where I am.
This new year I have been pondering over how and when this started changing. I thought I should share this with you because it has a lot to do with the homeopathic perspective.
India – an interesting case study.
Being a homeopath, you do find yourself getting into a default state of being a silent observer more often than not.
The same happens every time I am in India. Every visit I find myself observing things with a fresh set of eyes. Pondering over its evolving personality and core individuality. The collective experience it offers as a country. And every time there is a subtle but deeper insight. Something similar to what patients experience during each followup.
And the more I observe the more I became aware of how little I have known about India while I lived there. I was polarised and prejudiced about it in every way while I was in it.
I must admit it was easier to get a real"outside the box" perspective after I had actually moved away from it... But interestingly the real shift began as I started to own my Indian identity as a whole. The good, the bad and the ugly. The peace,serenity as well as the chaos, the beauty, elegance as well as the crudeness, the innocence,faith as well as the mistrust..
This is my working holiday in India. So for the first time I have given myself the permission to really sink in and be a part of the system. And I cannot help but appreciate and acknowledge the beauty of how things function here in the midst of chaos. I have realised that if this chaos changes then there is no India. It will lose its very identity, the very soul of its existence, grounding, its innocence, its faith, its passion, its colour, and its very spirit.
But for the first time I am beginning to own the same chaos within me too...
I remember when I first landed in Australia, it was not until I gave myself the permission to touch and experience Australia and imbibe its very spirit that I really felt at ease being here. It was easier because it was a choice to be here...
And today the same is happening again. I am no longer a foreigner in India as much as I am no longer a foreigner in Australia.
For the first time I am starting to feel that nothing should change anywhere to make things right. That things are just perfect the way they are. As long as I can change gears and hats smoothly...
Thanks to this perspective, I am connecting with India all over again...
Let me know what you think… How has homeopathy helped you in understanding your own self, your country and your people? Please leave a comment below...
(The photos have been taken when I went to Panchavati on the banks of the Godavari river. It is very close to Atul's family home.
Atul captured these moments when we went to get our fruits and veggies from the market on the banks of this river)